I know I have probably blogged about this prior, maybe written it in a memoir in a past life, but: not being able to smell while sick sucks!!!!!
It’s small potatoes, in the grand scheme of things, but if I can’t smell, who I am? [stares off into the distance]
Posted on March 10th, 2025
What makes you feel older? The need for a mouth guard, or the the need to keep track of each stimulant, drug, or sugar content of that one kombucha? Or is it just both, and I’m one of many in denial?
Posted on January 17th, 2025
When I decided to officially stop trying to come back from “medical leave” — I live in the US, so basically being unpaid to be sick :’) — it was the best decision I had made in six years. It was a hard decision, and it hurt me to make it, but in hindsight, I […]
Posted on March 12th, 2024
I get a new laptop — and by new, I mean refurbished at a cheaper price, because chronic pain doesn’t pay bills — and it’s red only the top. I’ve named it Arthur for reasons known to one very important person. Love you, C. – XOXO, A
Posted on February 27th, 2024
I was able to pull my carcass up and make a new theme — I prefer to make themes months ahead of time, but maybe 3 themes on standby is too many? — and BOY DO I REGRET THAT. Couldn’t type worth a shit, had to copy+paste everything, and it ended up being ten times harder. Do not recommend and *claps hands* stay in bed.
Posted on August 16th, 2023
I’m in so much pain, but I’ve accomplished a lot despite it. Am I proud of myself? Can’t tell, I’ve reached the “can’t feel emotion” intersection between “probable emergency I’ll ignore” to “I know I prayed for this before, but please don’t kill me in my sleep”.
Posted on August 14th, 2023
I was really angry the last time I blogged — I even cried afterwards with my door closed, because I didn’t want to upset my niece or worry anyone — and it did help to express some of the anger I still battle with. But I also looked at it later and realised that while […]
Posted on July 31st, 2023
And by “bad” I mean “really fucking awful” but I don’t want to come off as less than hubristic. At least in concerns to my pain, and not the day in general. I feel like it should be said that I’m on my period, despite not being emotionally affected by them. I have never, in […]
Posted on July 27th, 2023
My Mom bought me two Astrology books, with one proceeding to roast the fuck out of me and my sister. Holy fuck.
Posted on June 24th, 2023
I caught sight of my eyes in the mirror last Saturday. “Wow,” I thought, “you finally look like how you feel” and moved on. It’s only now, on the following Tuesday, that it wasn’t my pain putting dark circles under my eyes. It wasn’t my depression that seems to hit when no one is around, […]
Posted on June 20th, 2023
At the ripe age of 33, I decided to do dating sites (with a lot of help from my sister). I mostly went on for two things: 1) the gratification when someone likes me and b) maybe make some friends? So far only #1 has worked — #2 has been harder. There are so many […]
Posted on June 13th, 2023
