When I decided to officially stop trying to come back from “medical leave” — I live in the US, so basically being unpaid to be sick :’) — it was the best decision I had made in six years. It was a hard decision, and it hurt me to make it, but in hindsight, I […]
Posted on March 12th, 2024
I’m in so much pain, but I’ve accomplished a lot despite it. Am I proud of myself? Can’t tell, I’ve reached the “can’t feel emotion” intersection between “probable emergency I’ll ignore” to “I know I prayed for this before, but please don’t kill me in my sleep”.
Posted on August 14th, 2023
I was really angry the last time I blogged — I even cried afterwards with my door closed, because I didn’t want to upset my niece or worry anyone — and it did help to express some of the anger I still battle with. But I also looked at it later and realised that while […]
Posted on July 31st, 2023
I love my mother. I love my mother’s flaws, I love my mother’s quirks, I love my mother. I love my mother, but sometimes I wonder if I got my sadness and loneliness from her. I’ve seen her draw attention and befriend anyone in a way that’ll always be foreign for me. My mother probably […]
Posted on May 10th, 2023
Before mid-2017, I had no problems putting words to paper, or typing up an essay to a friend. I’d apply every thought, idea, emotion I had when I blogged in the past. Once the chronic pain started, that got harder; it never went away, I kept writing, but I found other mediums that didn’t include […]
Posted on March 16th, 2023
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Posted on December 16th, 2021