Not Catchy for a Reason
I know the » last entry was a dud (your silence was spoken much louder than words), but I just had to write this down, and Lyone was the closest blog at hand. It's a mix of what was in the last entry, except without my sexual ventures. This, and I'm currently working on The Taboolistings », and before I killed myself with the amount of coding I've been doing, I needed a short break.
It was 2005 (…I think), and I was sort-of, kind-of getting into romance novels. I loved them, sucked all of them up like a vampire woken from the grave after 1,000 years and thirsting for blood. I couldn't get enough! I did thriller, romance, historical romance, paranormal romance, you name it! If it had romance (of the sex kind, and Twilight is not of that kind), I was reading it. When I ventured across Suzanne Brockmann's Navy SEAL series, I was instantly hooked. When I bought Hot Target, with the infamous character, FBI Agent (and openly, fabulously gay) Jules, I was even more excited with the series, because I felt there wasn't enough same-sex relationships–much less people who were gay!–in Literature today.
I've always been a supporter of gay rights–having open-minded parents and a gay Uncle helps, hm?–but I had never explored how I really felt about it. I didn't hate it, I just…didn't know how I felt about it. In Hot Target, the sexual tension that happened between Jules, and his future husband, Robin (the main character's brother) was…so intense. I read it from beginning to end without putting it down (back in the day when I couldn't read a book in under six hours, but that's for another day), and was very unsatisfied when I realised their story was not through.
Another thing? I listened to Forget It by Breaking Benjamin, hitting reply on my stereo ALL NIGHT LONG. This snippet stood out to me the most:
It's a crime you let it happen to me
Out of mind, I love it, easy to please
Nevermind, forget it, just memories
On a page inside a spiral notebook
The entire song (you can read the lyrics at azlyrics.com ») is them in that book. It's such a tragic song in it's own right, and yet explains away so many words that cannot be said. That, my friends and viewers, is how I ended up getting into slash (for those who don't know: a same sex pairing). I started with Harry/Draco from Harry Potter (which, along with Arthur/Merlin from Merlin, will always be my OTP), Arthur/Merlin from Merlin, Jack/Ianto from Torchwood, Brian/Justin from Queer as Folk (that is a given, kthnx) and even L/Light from the anime, Death Note. Yes, I am so very…well, I obviously have too much free time on my hands.
Now, after I finish The Taboolistings » of course, I will endeavour to write the most angsty Arthur/Merlin piece of fic based off that song, because Christina » has me dishing out the most angsty crap ever and I need practise. Watch out, it'll make you cry (and she will, too).
Posted: August 6, 2009
Listed Under: Fandom Talk, Literature, Music, Real Life, Writing
Tags: fandom, slash
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August 6, 2009 · Permalink
It was NOT a dud (your last post). I already told you I found it VERY interesting. I am sucktastic friend obviously, because I didn't reply. Every time I want to reply, I feel like I want to say so much and I'm positive it will be PAGES for a reply comment and then I get like intimidated by my reaction and then never reply. Horrible cycle. Which I will have to rectify, I guess. You don't mind me leaving LONG ASS COMMENTS, right? What's my word could maximum? LOL. I mean, I already want to say SO BLOODY MUCH TO THIS POST.
Chris »
August 15, 2009 · Permalink
Okay, so because you said it was MORE THAN OKAY TO LEAVE A LONG ASS COMMENT. Here we go. Brace yourself.
I can't remember the exact year I got into my CRAZY CRAZY romance novels obsession, but I believe I was 14/15. And my love for those romance novels (I had 4 bookshelves with just romance books, I kid you not, it was ridiculous) went on until I was 17/18. By then I got more into teen novels, like the Gossip Girl books, and a few other teen books that I can't remember now. I discovered slash through fanfic myself, and yeah, it was through the Harry Potter fandom (Harry/Ron). So it was a yer or two that I devoured a lot of slash fanfic in the HP fandom, and kept reading my teen novels. Then I discovered this little well know anime called Loveless. M brother, bless him, saw it at our rental place and got it and hand it over to me and said "Thought this would interest you." And it did, oh, it did. I was always an Anime fan, but I never knew about the gay aspect of it. Yaoi or shoinen-ai (which is what Loveless is, the tamer version). So I devoured Loveless, and then checked out other yaoi/shoinen-ai anime's, devoured those, and then I found the beauty that was Manga. Of the yaoi kind. I had only ever had Gundam Wing and Sailor Moon manga. My first yaoi manga was this manga comic called "Wild Rock". And then, yeah. It was only that for some time. I was still reading my teen books on the side sometimes. I had left the romance books in the dust years before (I sold them all on Amazon and made some hefty money, let me tell you; same thing with my teen novels). I believe I was 20, when I was reading Twilight, this little book that had just come out and sounded interesting from the blurb, when I discovered original gay erotica novels. Basically, gay romance novels. So Twilight was put on the side which I devoured those. After a few months I noticed that Twilight was just not doing it, so I sold it. Along with my other teen books. And now, currently, I am into everything, although I have not read a het romance novel since I was 16, I think. So I'm into everything EXCEPT the romantic Harlequin novels. So that's MY long ass story of how I came to be where I am (reading wise AND slasher wise). So much longer than yours, yeah? I TOLD YOU, YOU DIDN'T LISTEN. I TALK AND TALK AND TALK. I am horrible.
Okay, now, HOT TARGET. You still have those novels? Lend them to me? LMAO. I now want to read them because of the hot gay characters it has. DUDE< I had no idea, seriously. I think there was only one romance novel that I read that had a gay character, but he was dead and it was mentioned in passing.
Also, send me that Breaking Benjamin song? Because I DON'T HAVE IT AND I WANNA IT.
And yeah, we obviously have too much time on our hands. But, come on, teh pretty! So many pretty boys to slash, so many pretty boys that have chemistry. Just, so much!
Angsty fic, ha! From you? I think I just had a heart attack. This is not the India fic, is it? And I may everyone cry. It's a talent.
NOW, WHERE IT THAT ENTRY YOU SAID YOU WERE GOING TO POST?